Sunday, December 14, 2003

A time ago, I was a person who feared to feel, feared to love, feared to speak who I really was. I awoke and realized how much I have lied to myself, and felt shame. To this day however, in the truth I try to surround myself with, in the emotions I put forth in front of myself, I find myself paralyzed in desires by situation and fate. How easy it would be, to look back.. how easy it would be to lie.. but I cannot turn away from myself...never again. I must remember.

Friday, December 12, 2003

Its morning. I'm beginning to fully realize the fate that is awaiting me in the next 5 days. 2 takehome finals before I can leave. I don't feel so bad though. I'm rather inspired to get back home and relax for awhile. I've realized these last few days how much creative energy i've been desiring to get out of me. In other news, our multiplayer game project is failing, and we are not to blame. Thats about it for now. Its too early. My internet is still out.

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

Today marks my second day without internet in my room. I've been stealing internet from down in the commons all day. i've been so inspired lately. In these times of little work, my mind has so much time to explore its creativity. i've been working on my site constantly, so far it is looking good, no? I've decided I want to be less rantish to people about my life, so i've created a website to talk about it. I think its a good idea. Oh well. In other news, i'm really excited about winter break. So many people and friends to look forward to. I still have christmas presents to get for them. I have some good ideas Muhahaha. I had an interesting idea with calynda today about a book idea "Adventures in wifi". I really want to learn the skillz of a good wardriver. Perhaps I'll have more time to think about that this winter break too. This winter i've decided that I will be working for a good portion of the time. I need $$$ to replace the laptop and pay for taxes coming up *sigh* ah well, c'est la vie. I wonder what it will be like to see some of my friends. Last summer I left on bad terms with a few of them. There is a lan party coming up too, I wonder how that will be, I need to find out what games are going to be played so I can pick up my skillz again. Anyways, thats it for now.